Day 15: A picture of something you want to do before you die.

Is to be able to join and win the World Fencing Championship or better, the Olympics.

Yes, I've always wanted to be able to stand on top of the podium, and hear my national anthem being broadcasted to the whole world. 

That's what I want to do before I leave this planet. 

Photo Source:

[unknown]

FLYING OFF.

For the next 11 days, I will not be able to continue my 30 Day Challenge and update my "online journal" for I'll be spending

Yes, be going off to some unexpected but interesting places! Can't wait!

Till then, arrivederci!

Promise to post some photos! :)

Day 14: A picture of something you could never imagine your life without.

Although I can't live without food and air, but I really cannot imagine my life without true Laugh Out Loud moments. I simply adore laughing and making other people laugh. 

I guess it makes my life worth living. 

You can take away my internet, my clothes or even my phone (though I'm not asking you to, just a figure of speech), but don't ever take away laughter. 

Like Charlie Chaplin once said:

"A day without laughter, is a day wasted."

Day 13: A picture of your favorite band or artist.

To be honest, I have a lot of favourites. But Simple Plan has to be one of the top.

I instantly fell in love with this band when my mom got their sophomore album, "Still Not Getting Any" for me. The songs like "Addicted" "I'd Do Anything" "My Alien" and my favourite "Welcome To My Life" were constantly blasting on the speakers at home. Then, the other songs like "Shut Up" "Don't Mean Anything" and others like "Jet Lag" have been on my mental playlist for a while now. Excited to be getting their recent album "Get Your Heart On!"!

Heard that they are coming back to Malaysia for a concert. I just have to be there!!


SP <3 

Photo Source:

VideoKeman 

Day 12: A picture of something you love.

CHRISTMAS MOVIES

Maybe this post has to do with the fact that Christmas is 13 days away! or maybe I really do love this. 

Christmas movies are timeless classics for me. From Home Alone to The Grinch, I will never get bored of them.
Because to me, Christmas movies are always filled with tearful drama and some of the most amazing endings. Everybody is always happy in the end (yes, even the Grinch ended up happy).
I absolutely love this. I can still watch it in the middle of the year and it won't seem weird at all.

Photo Source:

HelloGiggles

Christmas With Glee

Do They Know It's Christmas? (Glee Version) 

This song is the first song that made me literally cry. This song really explained the true meaning of Christmas.

Giving. Share. Spreading the Love. 

This, is just amazing. Honestly, I am speechless. In a very good way.

Video Source:

musicfromgleeVEVO

Day 11: A picture of something you hate.

Man-eating Dinosaur Movies. 

So, everyone knows Terra Nova is a nice show, people exling themselves to go and live in the woods, build a new world all over again, hot guys in uniforms, love romances etc. It seemed cool, until dinosaurs start appearing and eating people. That's when I switched the channel.

It all started from Jurassic Park when I was just a little girl. When Dad got the CD, not knowing what it's all about, I sat down and watch. Been having nightmares about it for weeks.It's the fact that they just take a small bite and leave your body parts stuck in between their teeth. Disturbing and disgusting.

After that, I refused to watch any movie or tv series or commercials, ANYTHING related to dinosaurs eating humans.

Don't get me wrong, dinosaur movies are cool, where the only living things in the movie were trees, bacteria, insects and dinosaurs. That's all.

When the human world and the dinosaur world merge to make a movie, count me out of that.

Photo credit:

The Editing Room

Recent purchase.

Haven't been going any shopping lately. So here's my only buy this month. I think.
Bought a ring from Deanna Maria's Closet for only RM10. Look how cute it is!

It's a teapot mood ring! 

Yeah, it's been the same colour since I wore it. Dark Blue/Purple=relaxed. 

Good to know. 

Check out the shop! (Only for KKians!!)

Deanna Maria's Closet

Day Ten: A picture of the person you do the most crazy things with.

My sister and me. A lot of people think we're twins, but we're not.
We just like to do crazy stuffs together, like annoy our brothers, prank somebody, fighting with each other using pillows and brooms.

Outside, we might seem distant together, but at home, it's total chaos. She can't help being lame and I can't help being insulting. Sometimes, vice versa.

Yeah. She's crazy and sometimes annoying. but she's still my sister :)

Results!

So this year has been chaotic for me in the academic department.
Went through 2 public exams, suffered all the pressure and projects and deadlines.
Finally, my hardwork is about to be credited. Not sure how it will turn out though.

Yes, the PMR and UEC results are coming out in the same week! UEC will be on the 21st and PMR on the 23rd.

After the last day of exams, I have forced myself not to think about the results since it was months away then. Now, it's in a couple weeks time and not sure if I can control my excitement and anxiety.
In other words, I'm scared. I'm afraid the reality won't match up to the expectation. Honestly, it doesn't matter that much if I disappointed my parents or teachers. But it will hurt if I disappointed myself.

I've put in so much effort into finishing the papers, especially Chinese History. I would beat myself up if I failed. *gulp*


Hoping all the other candidates are getting ready to receive the news better than I am.
I have been having "panic attacks" at the very thought of the results.

Day Nine: A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

My Mom <3

I guess she really is the person who has gotten through me the most. She's not the type of mum who shows affection openly, instead, I've found out that she shows her love through her strict and sometimes intolerable ways. 

She has definitely showed me how to be a true person and a lady. She has been there with me through my midnight breakdowns and through my days spent in the hospital. 

Although there were times when we couldn't agree on the same terms, but in the end, she always know what's best for me and let me do the decision, which always ends with me agreeing with her.

Yeah, my mom is really just the perfect person for this.

My Letter to Santa

The White Lie

So for my bedtime story, I decided to reread my posts for 2011. As I enter the month of May 2011, I realised that my posts were mostly about guys and my feelings.
I guess I just have to clear things up.

Like my introduction page says "Guys are not my current interest" which, is part truth, part lie.

I'm telling the truth about not feeling anything serious for the opposite gender. It's just not my time to be going through that much of emotion. Just living my life like it is, carefree and the freedom to fantasize about certain guys like Tom Daley or Sean Berdy (Emmett from Switched at Birth).

The lying part is that I will never lack interest in guys. I would always feel a little giddy when you update your life on the social network sites. It's like I'm stalking you, but from a distance. Well, that didn't really make any sense. Hmmph.

Yeah. I guess I've made myself clear here.

Training later at 4 pm.
Should I go for the French class?

Not your only child..

It annoys me when my parents ask me to do something when I'm in the middle of doing something else, and just expects me to drop everything on my hand and do it for them. It's not that I'm being disrespectful, but if you have 3 other siblings, who are obviously not doing anything, and you end up being called for, you couldn't help but wonder, "why me? They are not doing anything, why not them?"

"I'm busy." Is a line I've learned not to use when being in this situation.
They would always use this classic comeback line:
"When I ask you to do something, then you're busy. But when there's nothing I want you to do, you're not busy." 

That always leaves me speechless, because I don't want to continue with "Well, you always choose the times when I'm doing something" 
That would only end up with all my request for something being ignored.

In the end, I always do as I'm told and avoid all the drama.

But I couldn't help but wonder, why always me? You guys have 3 more children who would happily do those things for you, when they have nothing else better to do though, but yet you chose the busy one.
I JUST DON'T GET IT. 

Another mystery about a parent.

Day Eight: A picture that makes you laugh.

I actually have a few photos that makes me laugh, but I'd rather not put them online for the good of everybody. Especially myself. Ha. 

The photo above makes me laugh because everybody was trying to do the "high-waisted nerd look". I think most of us were "half-way there". The moment when we all just agreed to pose like this, silently I laugh.
Trinity (the cute little girl in front) just made this photo that more adorable and funny!!

This was taken after a long night of caroling a year ago, and some of us just decided to let loose and act wild. Good times, good times...

Merry December :)

Yeah, the second day of one of my favourite months of the year, next to January.

Here's 5 things I look forward to this Christmas:

1) Caroling- favourite Christmas event. Get to go to houses and venues to sing wonderful carols!
2) Shopping! Mostly for all my darlings. Presents!
3) Christmas-themed Movies! They only play it once a year, so HOME ALONE MARATHON!
4) Family Reunions! Aunt Mimi and Aunt Ani coming back for the hols this year! Oh the comedic drama that will happen!
5) Christmas Day!! The day I've been looking forward to every year! The presents, the laughter, the food! Can't dislike the food on Christmas!

Thinking about all these things just makes me really happy and giddy inside. I feel like a little kid again :)

Hope you guys are preparing well for the holidays too! Don't forget to write your letters to Santa!

Day Seven: A picture of your most treasured item.

This is my baby over here.

Lucky. My Allstar BF 2008 epee.
It's my fencing weapon and my confidence booster. Dad gave it to me as a "well done and all the best" gift late 2010, I think. Can't remember the exact date I got it.
Fencing fact: The heaviest weapon is the epee, and it's bell guard is also the largest among the others. 
So whenever I hold Lucky up, it immediately makes me feel a lot bigger (and stronger) because I'm only 156cm which is actually considered "small-size" in the sport.
I named it Lucky because all through the 2 years together, I've managed to improve my accuracy and it made me feel like it brings me luck, so yeah, LUCKY :)

If anyone tries to mess with my weapon, oh, you'll probably end up polishing it until it really shines!

Day Six: A picture of a person you’d love to trade places with for a day.

Lisa Ling (her Wiki page)

I would like to trade places with her because of her career. She's a journalist, the Oprah Show Investigative Reporter and she has covered many stories and investigation. She's not like Giuliana Rancic or Cat Deely covering entertainment news, but she does the hardcore stuffs like child trafficking to the 9/11 to the bride burning in India.

I got inspired by her on the Oprah Show one day. She was interviewing this man who shot his family members and who was going to be executed the next day. The one thing I really admire about her is that she is able to stare these people in the eye without the slightest sight of fear.

What amazes me still is that she got in and out of North Korea safely! I mean, her documentary about the country shows us how hard it is to go to places without being followed by the Army General. To make it out alive without being locked up, is really awesome.

She is truly my inspiration and an amazing person. I would be scared but honoured to be able to step foot in her shoes for a day.

Photo Credit: 

Women's Confrence

Must Watch!

So, ever since Star World introduced us to their new shows, I am now currently hooked to this one:

 photo source

It's a story about two babies who were switched at birth and both grew up in totally opposite backgrounds.
I love everything from the plot to the actors.
Incredibly talented actors from Lucas Grabeel to Katie Leclerc. I am slowly falling into obsession with this show.
What amazes me is that Katie is hard at hearing but is still able to speak and Sean Berdy (the very cute guy below) is really deaf. They are doing such an amazing job and I'm more interested in the Sign Language now.

photo source

Won't you just die for this pair of eyes? 

More about the show? Click here

S-P-A-M :D

Yeah, this went on for like 10-13 minutes I guess, talking about Heidi's fantasy about One Direction then to Butts and names and how awesome I was everybody was and just spamming each other's notifications with nonsense and likes, and from 7 comments to..

I have the craziest friends ;) B.B.F!

Special thanks to Heidi Chua, Laura Yong, Maxine Goh, and Fish Lee. 
and also to Brandon Wong for contributing 1% of the comments.

Day Five: A picture of your favourite memory.

This has got to be it.

Maxine is missing :(

It's not just this particular day, but all of our GDOs. We watched movies, bad ones, good ones, and went (window) shopping and just going semi-crazy. 

I love them all. They make my life so much more colourful. 

Oh, you guys know who you are ;)

I hope this will not just be a memory but a great part of my life. 

p.s: If you can't see me, I'm the one in the striped sleeve with her face covered with who-knows-whose hair.

Day Four: A picture of your favourite night.

Too many nights I've spend laughing and having fun. If I were to pick my favourite night, I'll choose this:

It was December 2010, a night of caroling in Rasa Ria Resort in Karambunai. It was a great night because not only did we get to sing carols in front of international guests, we also devoured ourselves in a 5 star dinner, for free!
The picture above is the almost group photo of the "bleh" team. It was one of the rare times when most of us are here for Christmas. Since most of them are already working or studying abroad and chances of coming back to KK for the holidays were really slim.
It was indeed my favourite night, so far.

Day Three: A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

This was a tough choice between Castle and Glee, but in the end, McKinley High has got to be my favourite.

This show just makes my week every time I watch it. The characters are so well-played and the story line is just very exciting to follow. And the songs! Makes me smile everyday :)

Can't wait for Season Three to air in Malaysia!

Photo credit:

spoilersguide.com

Life, and weird dreams that you happen to remember.

Been looking forward to this holidays for weeks, but when it started, I have been feeding myself with boredom and fried foods.
I should be doing charity work like visiting Bukit Harapan or exercising, either of them is what I'm doing right now.
I feel like a failure. *sighs*

Anyways, just something I had to get out. I had one of the sweetest yet weirdest dreams ever.
It was about North Pole, long lost warrior, hyenas, fighting demons,love triangle, Arthur Christmas, Vampires and Italy.
Yeah, I was on a expedition team that were travelling to the North Pole, and we were staying at a lodge or camp base. There were around 15 of us.
Most of them looked like people from "Vampire Sucks", maybe cause I watched it last night, and Arthur Christmas, and this guy from Sukma.
First, I was told that I was a long lost warrior and we were using bamboo sticks to fight off flying tiki looking demons and then we were on our way to the North Pole, and I had this fling with the Sukma guy and then this werewolf from "Vampire Sucks" came and told me that I had to choose between him and the Sukma guy.
Next thing I knew, we were on a van to Italy where they're going to drop me off at some hotel because it was dangerous for me to go to the North Pole. I blame the warrior thing.
Then I took a photo with the Sukma guy and we smiled sadly at each other...

Weird thing about this dream was that it was me in full figure form, not me in a supermodel form like always, and I remember almost all the details and it played in my mind like a good movie. And I know who the Sukma guy is..

Day Two: A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.

Yeah, that was the best photo I can find with her. 

Out of all the amazing friends that I am lucky enough to have. The longest I've been with was with her.

Meet Abigail. 

She's been my friend since we were 7 years old, and the fact that we were born 17 days apart only made us closer.
We've gone through so many ups and downs together. It felt like yesterday when we were debating whether Rihanna or My Chemical Romance has the coolest songs. I was on the MCR team, and we were always there on the other side of the line when either one of us called. That seemed like a long time ago since we called each other.

Ahh, the sleepovers and the pointless fights and endless tears, 8 years of sillyness and sisterly love.

I am going to miss her when she moves to Australia. Nah, I'm going to hide in her luggage.

Day One: A picture of you with 10 facts.

They didn't say it had to be a recent photo. 

It was me when I was 8. Ah, the pig tails.

Fact No. 1: I am a fencer. 

No, not make fences. Fencing as in the sport. Zorro and Pirates of the Carribean anyone? 

Been at the sport since I was 11, and I fell in love with it. My weapon is the Epee.

Fact No.2: I love reading mysteries. 

Ever since I first started reading Agatha Christie's Murder on the Orient Express, I caught on to the idea of deduction and ever since I've been looking for the next mystery to appear on my book shelf. 

Fact No.3: I drink coffee like it's water. 

Just place a jug of Kopi 'O' in front of me and I'll be happily gulping it down, one mug at a time. I guess I got it from my family in Menggatal. They always have coffee wherever they go. They sometimes bring their own brew on them. 

Fact No.4: When I grow up, I wish to be a famous journalist. 

I want to interview everybody. From athletes to survivors, I just want to know what they've been through and how they get back up. It's life changing. 

Fact No.5: I am allergic to chocolates or anything that contains cocoa. 

Yes, this sad fact was proven just recently when I ate a piece of chocolate and instantly had rashes all over my body and I fell sick and nauseous. So don't try to feed me chocolates. I might just break down and cry.

Fact No.6: In my pastlife, I was Queen Victoria. 

Yes, people might say I'm crazy, but every gut in my body tells me I'm somehow related to the Queen Mother of England. 

Fact No.7: I like to make people laugh.

I don't care whether is laughing at me or with me, I just like to hear laughter. I say/do the stupidest things to entertain people. Although sometimes, I end up laughing alone. 

Fact No.8: I'm fun-sized.

Other people call it short, but I prefer the above adjective. Heidi calls me 'bella petite', and I like that too. 

Fact No.9: Christmas is my favourite time of the year. 

Partly because I'll be receiving presents from a lot of people. Also because I get to go caroling with my favourite bunch of people! The "bleh" team. I miss them all.. 

Fact No. 10: My favourite scent is Lavender. 

I just love the aromatic feel it emits. 

This is Day 1.

30 Day Blog Challenge?

Yeah, so everybody's been doing their own version of the 30 Day Blog Challenge, and I wanted to do mine too. But the titles for some days, I can't really find the answers or in this case photos, but since I've been a couch potato for over 2 weeks now, I better do something worthwhile.


So I have decided to do it. 

Yeah. This is going to be interesting...

Check out other 30 Day Challengers!
Heidi
Maxine
Crystall
Bella

Photo credit: Sharenator

Go Tigers!

I've been wanting to post about Malaysian football for a while now, but hadn't had the time to do it. Now, I guess, it's perfect. 

Congrats Harimau Muda  for winning back-to-back Gold in the 2011 SEA Games!
Last time we won 1-0 own goal from Thailand, but this year, against home team, Indonesia with 93mins game time + 30mins extra time, ending with a 1-1 draw, then going on to win the penalty shoot out 4-3, we defended our Gold with pride and honour.

Teamwork, it's what I will say that got their mojo back together. First few minutes were a bit frazzled. Probably because they were playing against the home team, and like any other home team, the crowd is always crazy. Sometimes it affects a team's performance.

But throughout the match, both teams played extremely well. The Indonesians were playing on home soil and we were fighting to defend our title. Each and every player had lived up every second of the game, hoping to win big for their country. In the end, at the penalty shoot out, with Fahmi's save and Captain, Baddrol's "almost not" goal, my country, Malaysia managed to defend the title.

When we won, "Congrats Malaysia" was trending worldwide on twitter! So was Nazmi Faiz! The 17-yearold that skipped SPM for this historical moment. Now that's commitment. They should exempt him from the exams. Haha.

 Didn't make it in time to crop the photo with Nazmi Faiz on it.

What's next for them? Olympics qualifying match against Syria in KL. I would love to go but I'm afraid I'm stuck here in KK for the hols.

 photo taken from KLpos.com

GO MALAYSIA! GO TIGERS!
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You know, just to brighten my day..

Marco Fichera (ITA)

photo from Yahoo EuroSports

2010 Youth Olympics Singapore Men Epee (Individual) Gold Medalist

 2010 Euro Cadet Championship Men Epee (Team and Indi) Gold Medalist

Now he is somebody that I look up to.To be 16 when he won his Youth Olympic Gold, that's an achievement.

He is certainly a fencer that I will be looking out for when he makes it to the real Olympics.

Couch Potato

So it's the year end holidays now. Yipee....
Been on a school-free vacation for a week now, and boy was I up to nothing.
Other than the Greyson Chance showcase, my past week of "holiday" wasn't, how you say, productive or fun. At all.
I literally spent a whole day in front of the TV, watching endless romantic comedy movies, crime series and pointless commercials. I'm starting to wonder when my butt is going to expand then inflate due to the long term contact with my couch.

Also, I have been dumping toxic waste ie. fast foods into my tummy the whole week, so much for eating fibre cookies for the holidays. Training stopped momentarily because coach went to the SEA Games in Indonesia, so I think I'm way over the 50 mark now.

Surprisingly, I don't care! I've never been so neglecting about my weight and my body. I guess it's from caring too much that I just got tired of this maintenance. Taking a break from all this shiz. I don't have anybody to impress, but me. So far, I've been happy with how I look, even now. My mind just wants to relax for a couple more days before I go back to training. Hopefully, I can go for the Hong Kong competition next year! *crossing my fingers!*

Alright, I better stop now before I tire my brain from the overload work.

Hope your holidays are better than mine. 
(I should do something with it)

Greyson Chance Live in KK!

If you guys read about the experience I went through pre-showcase, then you might think that the whole experience was a terrible one. Let me tell you, it wasn't the best times but it was certainly one to remember, in a good way.

While waiting for the concert, not only did I get to see how brutal people can be for the front view of the showcase, but I also saw how many people were excited to see Greyson, in person! We have some crazy fans over here. I also met a lot of new people. Nice people. Like Nicole, the tall girl, who helped us fan everybody around cause she was very tall, and this girl who complimented on my nails, she backed me up when I was asking people, very politely, to not push. That was before I lost my cool. Regretted not knowing her name. She seemed pretty cool. Then other girls too who had to put up with my random act of awkwardness while waiting for the gates to open. It was a pretty fun experience that time.

Then also when I was looking for Tierny, the people who were complete strangers to me offered to help to look for "this little girl in pink". They are just amazing.

What's more fun was when we couldn't really see the stage, with all the tall people in front of us, we looked at the cameras that could zoom x500 or something like that and we could see Greyson so clear and near on their screen. They were happy to let us see through and made the showcase much more interesting.

Oh, Greyson Chance was just amazing. He performed all six songs without any band. It was just him and his keyboard. How amazeballs was that? Was trying to sing a long to his songs, but sadly, I only know a few. I tried though. I really did. I was on the verge of tears when he said that we were the "best fans in the world" and when he sang "Waiting Outside the Lines". Just like that, an hour passed. The whole 8 hours wait was totally worth it. WORTH IT.

After the concert was the signing of the album. I could not believe he actually signed every copy with his adorable smile on his face! He is a true sweetheart that boy, and he is only 14! Words can't describe how happy I was to see that my sister and my cousin enjoyed their night, despite all the downs we went through. I guess that's what Greyson Chance can do to you. He can make you feel so happy and comfortable in his presence. I am intoxicated with his aromatic being.

Greyson Chance, thank you so much for coming to KK for your Asian Tour. I really hope that you will come back again! and do a REAL concert!!

KK LOVES YOU GREYSON!!

Photo taken from HitzKKFacebook

This was the amount of people who came for the showcase, and it was 2 hours before the show!

Before Greyson's showcase (as experienced by the normal ticket holder) Pt.2

Yeah, this is the second part, one long post wouldn't do. (Part one would be below)

So, we sat there, trying very hard to listen to what they are trying to say because there wasn't any speakers or amplifiers near us. Then Anthonia came to us, with her meet and greet pass pinned on her and told Heidi to get hers, and they went. Of course, with meet and greet passes, you get to avoid the crowd and enter through the VIP lane, and stand in front of the stage. Awesome shiz. So the rest of us, Tierney (Heidi's sister), Brit (my cousin), my sis and I waited for our turn to enter. It was around 5:45 and the sky was starting to get dark. Sun sets around 6-6:30pm here in KK.

Then, when they finally opened the gates at around 6pm, what happened few hours before happened again. Everyone was shoving and pushing and suffocating one another, trying to grab the frontal view of the stage. The four of us held on to each other so tightly and prayed that we don't get separated. My phone ran out of battery so I was wishing so hard nobody got lost. As we made our way to the front, Tierney and I were smashed onto the barricade and my sis and Brit got lost in the crowd. People were pushing to get in and the guy from the organizer screamed "IF YOU GUYS DON'T STOP PUSHING! YOU WILL ALL WATCH THE CONCERT FROM HERE!" Major threat to everyone, and the pushing decreased. It didn't stop but it wasn't as bad as before.

Tierney got in first and I got in after that. I brought her to the front and waited for my sis and Brit to enter. After a few minutes, they managed to get in. When for a moment there I thought everything would be alright from then on, I was wrong. As people start filling in, so the pushing started, again. But I'm not blaming on the crowd, I'm blaming it on a couple of guys who thought it was funny to push and deny. Like seriously guys? You thought we were dumb enough to fall for your "It's not me!" excuse? Look behind you? Anyone pushing? NO. It's you. Yeah, they made Brit cry and they should donate their balls to the poor for that. They might've just ruined her day. So we moved to the back, leaving Tierny with Ryan, thinking she would be okay. Brit was crying non-stop and I tried reasoning with her so she won't leave the concert. Gabby and Sam moved to the back too, they can't stand the boys either. Brit decided to stay at the back which was jerk-free. The back was spacious unlike the front, so we sat down and waited. They played various music videos and people just sang-a-long to it. Then I saw Ryan. Alone. Which meant that Tierny was in front. Alone. Was debating whether to announce it to the crew or go in to look for her. It was 6:45pm. There's still time. Brit was still complaining and wanting to leave but I told her that everybody else is suffering too. I offered her a piggyback ride and she reluctantly agreed to stay. That's one problem solved.

Heidi came at around 7pm to our place and asked me to look for Tierney cause she had to go to the meet and greet corner. Instead of having to look inside the crowd, I went for the next best thing-the announcement-. I played "the panicked sister/cousin looking for ____" role and the crew were so helpful. While waiting for the announcement, I took up the courage and continued the role-play and went into the dense crowd up front. I asked people to help me scream out Tierney's name and oh KK people are so nice when they are not pushing. Then, like the sky opening up to the heavens, "Tierney Chua" was announced on the amps, and the crowd made way for her to come to me. Once again, everybody was together. Huge relief.

It was already 7:30pm and T-minus 1 hour! The back stared filling in too and soon the place was packed! The people were so tall that even tip-toeing didn't help. I couldn't even see the projector screen! Tierny got hungry waiting and decided to go out and eat with her mom. So she left. Just like that. She handed me her copy of Hold On Til' The Night to me to get it signed, in case she couldn't come back.

And so we waited. Rica came on stage and hit it off by throwing posters, none of them got thrown into my radius of reach. Sadly. We had to constantly move places to get a better view of the stage and fortunately, nobody was pushing anymore. That was uplifting.

Then at 8:30pm or so, Greyson came on stage and suddenly,  

everything we went through that afternoon was worth it.... An hour of total bliss.

Before Greyson's showcase (as experienced by the normal ticket holder) Pt.1

Greyson Chance just performed here in KK last night, and it wasn't pretty.

Here's roughly how it went : 

Went to One Borneo (the venue of the showcase) at 12pm, around 8 more hours before the show. My aunts all thought we were crazy to go so early, but we had to, in order to avoid the massive crowd. Which we failed to later on. So, my little cousin, my sis and I walked around the mall, took videos of our so-called "journey" just to kill time. Heck, I even went to ToysRUs to get some Play-Doh to play with. Bought Greyson's debut album for Heids and ate lunch. At around 2pm we head on to Gourmet Lane only to find there were already a group of people waiting for the gates to open.

So we sat around, talked and listened to the radio, Hitz.fm, with Anthonia's phone, cause Greyson was on air. Funny how he disliked the durians and bambangan so much. Just as Heidi walked down the lane towards us, we heard the names of the winners of the MeetNGreet on air. All we heard were Anthonia and Heidi's name mentioned by Greyson and everyone just went into hysterics. Then, reality struck and both of them were anxiously waiting for their phones to ring to get their passes.

By 4:30pm (4 hours left!), everybody was excited to get in. Especially when the security guards came towards the gates did everybody started getting their tickets ready in hand and standing as near as possible to the barricades to get in ahead of the crowd. This was when things started getting ugly. With the desire to get front row view (it was a standing showcase), everybody wanted to get in first in order to have front row view of Greyson. There were almost 200 people there at the time and there were a lot of pushing and screaming. The people at the back lost all common sense and started to push from behind, leaving the ones in the middle to suffocate as the people in front tried to push back. Deranged girls started swearing and screaming "Don't push! DON'T F*****G PUSH!!" I even heard someone saying "If this was America, I would sue!" Hmm, doesn't that sound familiar? Thinking to myself, we have 4 hours left and things are already this chaotic, damn, it's going to get uglier.

It just did, when they found out that the normal ticket entrance was on the left side, some people from the middle just thought that they could squeeze into the crowd and move to the left. Isn't that just stupid? Come on, 200 people standing closely like tight packed sardines and you think you can wiggle through the dense crowd? You humour me. Slightly. In the end, the crowd went out of control and I shouted "Don't push! DON'T PUSH!" and the dude in front of me, who happened to step on my feet, thought that I was directing my shouts to him, screamed at my face! I was in shock, and I told him I wasn't screaming at him, and there went my respect for him. Inconsiderate fool, and he didn't even apologise for damaging my lovely toes.

Fortunately, after an HOUR of just standing there, being tossed around by outward forces and sweating ourselves, the people from Hitz.fmKK came to settle things down. They did, thank God. They made us sit and wait till the gates are open. They were obviously surprised so many people came this early. It was only 5:30pm. 3 more hours!

To be continued, (part 2)

You can always count on Paint to kill time..

Yeah, my life is that pathetic at the moment.

Adults

I have to laugh at myself for wanting to being an adult so badly, after what I experienced the other night, I'd rather stay in my teenage form for the rest of my life.

It really shocks me how immature adults can be at times. I'm not talking about the "fun" immaturity, but by the way they handle tough situations. I mean, adults have the habit of claiming themselves as "experienced" and "matured" especially if they are parents, but in the eyes of their child, a 16 year old could handle the situation even better than they did.

It was only a simple miscommunication among each other, and it had to lead into a big fight, bringing along everybody who were present into their immature drama. It's just really unnecessary to do that.
As a teenager, I expected them to know better, since they think they are far more experienced and matured about everything in life. So I thought one of them would admit they were wrong and bury the hatchet, but no, instead, one is waiting for the other to apologise so they wouldn't have to look so bad in front of the unwilling audience. Everybody wants to win these days, no matter how wrong they are.

They've taught us to say "sorry" and admit our mistakes whenever we are in the wrong. Maybe it's time for them to listen to their own advice?

Makes me wonder, does age really come with experience? Or does age even matter when it comes to maturity?

Please, adults, grow up.

Thinking Back

So I had this short term emotional breakdown the other day, and suddenly, it dawned on me the importance of life and all the other melodramatic whatnots. Then I thought about my blog, on how it has evolved over these years and what thoughts have I chosen to insert into this online diary of mine and how it all came to be..

It was the mid 2008 when I was preparing for my first ever public exams- UPSR and that was also the time when my hormones took over my conscience. I started getting over-emotional over small stuffs and became isolated among my friends. So, that was how my URL 'lonelyamongfriends' came to be. I would never dream of changing it because this line reminds me of the situation I was and how that managed to strengthen me in a way that I won't ever feel as lonely as before. The reason I started this blog was to allow myself to express all my deepest thought onto a piece of virtual paper as a diary alternative when my pen ran out of ink or when my journal runs out of paper. (I guessed I lost track of that)

Then, as I enter highschool early 2009, I finally met other bloggers (I wasn't that public with mine in primary school) like Heidi and Laura and it somehow changed the way I blog, (you can explore my old archives if you want to know what I mean) and I believed the hype. The contents of my blog varied from life experiences to just random updates about nothing in particular. It then became an addiction. I was constantly checking stats and my chatbox (I've already removed it) to see who's reading my blog.
Ohmygosh.

Fast forward to 2011, so far I have posted about so many random thoughts and life in general. But lately, it has always been about what I have been up to and not much about putting any thought into it. So I might go back to blogging about my sad/happy life and probably bore you to death. Oh well, nobody likes reading about other people's sufferings anyways.

Was just reading the posts written by the 12 year old me and boy! do pardon my English then. I was still using the Sabahan Rojak and man, it was BAD. LOL-ing at myself right now. "Crazysteve" I mean like WTH?

I'm not kidding about Christmas coming early

Life, so recently

As everybody on the world knows, it was 11.11.11 yesterday.
To some, it's a day to make epic wishes and celebrate this historical day.
To others, it was just a normal day.

To fellow schoolmates, it was also the last day of school before the holidays start taking over, but to a few, it was a reminder that their biggest challenge is on the way--SPM. Really, we have to give them the props, it's hard to have exams when the rest of the world is celebrating the end of the year.

So yeah, had a lot of things going on for the last week of school. Football matches, training, reunion, GDOs, chasing Purple Myvi and Gala Dinner. Lost a lot of sleep thanks to them, gonna take back my beauty sleep when my hibernation starts! Don't know when. 

Here are some photos!

 Junior 2 Ping 2010 Reunion

(we were trying to keep a straight face, I guess it didn't work out for some of them) 

Sorry for the blurry photo, used my old camera.

Me and my crazy sister at my cousin's wedding. 

(Like my earrings? I do!) 

Chased down the Hitz Cruisers for the Greyson Chance's showcase. 

It was indeed an adventure. 

11.11.11

(Chinese Cultural Festival)

 Yu Tian Long, 余畑龙

famous Hakka singer, know the song " 不要去英国" ?

Saw him LIVE. 

Gary Cao Ge, 曹格, he is a Sabah-born international Superstar.

He is from my hometown, Kota Belud too!

 

Yeah that was pretty much the events that happened recently. Wanted to do an individual post for each, but that would have to wait. I hope this would keep you entertained for the moment. I hope. 

Well then, I'm off to have dinner with my family.

ALL THE BEST to all who are sitting for their SPM this year. You guys can do it! :)

11:11 11/11/11

Happy Eleven Eleven Eleven Day! 

Have you made an EPIC wish just now?? If not, then there's one more chance left!
At night!

Celebrate today, like it's tomorrow!

Just a little from me

I don't want to be mean to somebody who doesn't deserve this kind of treatment.
I've made a promise to God during my first communion that I'll love my neighbours as I love Him, so that's what I'm trying so hard to do.
So far, I've managed to narrow down my hatred, but it's still there. Hate is an ugly emotion.
Try not to practise it.

My emotions were in turmoil these few days. I have a feeling it might just be the hormones. That's why when I face situations like this, I ask myself "If I were a matured young adult, what would I do?" and I'll imagine myself in the shoes of my grown-up cousins and see what they would do. Sometimes, being a bitch isn't worth it.

I would want to confront some people, please don't get offended and take this the wrong way. I really want to let you know, it's just been a long while and I've been a coward, and an awful friend. I won't be surprise if I end up on your blacklist. I deserve that.

Major things will be happening this month, it's all about repentance (from me) and alms giving (for everyone).

May God bless you abundantly and may you see the light in this world.
The glass was always full to begin with anyways :)

2012 Project

I just wanted to do something a little extra.
Starting a whole new blog that isn't talking about my life but about others, in a good way. People who inspire me.

It's still under construction, still rethinking everything, a few knicks here and there, but I am excited!!

It's called "Real Life Glitters". It's not that cheesy... I really like that name. Hey, got a problem, tell it to your shrink! Okay, that was a bit mean, but seriously, it's the only name that I like out of "fairy dusts" "sparkling glitters" "inspirations of the world" and a list long more of really bad names. My mind isn't working right nowadays.

Anyways, really can't wait! Looking for inspirations!

Early Christmas

I know it's only November (Happy November by the way!) but it feels like Christmas is in the air already! Especially with this blasting on the speakers:

Michael Buble's Christmas Album

Yeap, exams being all over just placed the holly outside my door! Oh, I can't wait what's coming up for Christmas! Caroling, Bukit Harapan, parties, shopping! Excited!!

Best Friends?

Being best friends with you is the best I can hope for.
When I heard what you told me the other night, about that girl, honestly, I'm not going to be that jealous type that doesn't let other girls have feelings for her man, besides, you're not my man to begin with anyways.

I'll be lying if I said I won't cry. How can I not cry? What happened between us was too much to just be thrown away, for me. Just to keep things clear, it's okay with me if you well, have feelings for her. I mean, we're just "best friends" right? It's okay if we're in the friend zone, better than being strangers, again. *wongfumoment*

This was the moment I was afraid that would happen, me letting go of you, once and for all. I know once the feelings start to fade away, they will never come back. I don't want that to happen. I do hope you know this.

p/s: I never stopped liking you. oh, and nice eyes :)

So I've been a regular video watcher on youtube for a while now, and not always do I get the chance to watch all the great videos on the site, so the only option was to download it now and watch later. So I've been trying out different types of software, and I think I found a great one.

It's called... JCopia. It's just this software I found and it downloads everything you watch!
All I have to do is just press the play button and it automatically downloads it!
Easy huh?

Oh, and for music lovers, it downloads mp3 files too!

So here's the link JCopia

If it doesn't work, check out their site on the product and try for the free trial!

ENJOY! :) 

p/s: to get the software to FREE (!) all you have to do is make a review of this software and contact Jennifer Johnson at jjohnson@jiteco.com and send her the link to the review and she will contact you back! Don't miss out on this opportunity!

Conquered the GIANT and sharing the victory

Praise the Lord!

UEC is over! 
To be frank, the whole exam wasn't as terrible as I thought it would be. Seems like UEC took it easy with us this year. Or maybe I just managed to overcome my fear of the exam and go through it smooth sailing.
Anyways, no more dwelling in the past, it's the end of the year now!

November is almost here (can't you believe it! November!), and remember from the previous post, I did mention about "contributing to society". Yup, that's what I'm going to do. In the season of Advent, and inspired by Mission Sunday (23rd Oct), I'm planning to spend some time at Bukit Harapan, a care centre for the disabled. Most of them are children, and it was one of the first care centers I went when I was tagging along my mom's prayer group. I got attached to them. Sadly, as time passed, I got busy, and my plans to be a regular volunteer was pushed aside when they moved.
But now, with all the time in my hands, I'm gonna spend some of it there.

Anyone in KK who want to join? Just email me at mythness(at)gmail.com and I'll get back to you :)
I know, lame email right? I was 12 when I did it okay?

Yeah, if you're interested in other charities, do your part as a member of the society!
Give back, and you shall receive more. 

Frustrations

You would never know when somebody finally pulled the final straw until you start to go hysterical over little things. Sometimes it's all the build up from one small incident that led to your mental breakdown.

I'm on the verge of having one now.

You know how they like to say,
"Even though she smiles all the time, doesn't mean that she's not hurting on the inside" something like that.
I prefer to release all my frustrations than to hide them, so afterwards, I could really genuinely smile.

Everything is going wrong. Everything. What I expected, didn't happen. Things I should be doing at this moment is left at the side so that I could do something else that is totally irrelevant. I can't seem to focus for the shortest while, I get mad at myself, I'm starting to be insecure about myself, about everything in life generally.
I just don't get why I'm not like the others. They get to experiment with make up while I console myself with the fact that I don't need make up to make myself feel better, but deep down, I really want to try it on.
Fact is, I'm no good with all this beauty maintenance, I'm just not good at it.
All my attempts of trying to start early just ended with me feeling bad about myself.
I have no patience with myself, all of a sudden, I'm a failure.

You know, I'm not blind, I may have to wear glasses, but I'm certainly not blind. I can see that your eyes always wonder to the spots where all the extra facial hair or the acne are. I don't blame you, I blame myself.

Muffins, this post suddenly sounds like a hatred letter to myself. I better stop before I dig to deep.

p/s I just needed a place to express. Pages on my journal ran out. :/

Post Cards and Agatha Christie

So mum just came back from her worry-free trip to the United Kingdom, as expected, she brought home some gifts from the Heydons and Aunty Ruth. I nearly cried when I saw the two collections of Agatha Christie.

I got over 15 postcards! Yup, I collect postcards. :)

Finally framed the photo! :)

Moving Forward

Moving along to the flow of Time.

We're heading for the middle of October, which means another 2 grueling weeks of endless procrastination and exams for me and my fellow schoolmates. Preparing for the mother of all Junior Exams, yes, I'm talking about the merciless UEC.
Yes, it's worse than it sounds. But, I'm prepared to conquer that monster and be victorious!

I'm gonna start preparing for battle after I'm done with all my social networking. Give me 30 minutes. Trying to discipline myself here!

Can't wait till this nightmare is over, then I can finally let loose and enjoy life. Not that I'm not enjoying it now, but it's harder when the pressure is twice the size of Mt. Kinabalu. (yes, I'm exaggerating)

N-Eways,  I have lots of ideas for the next months. Thinking about contributing to the society. For they say, "Give, and you shall receive"

Can't wait!

Pray for me and all the others sitting for UEC!

Engagement of the Year

And they're finally engaged! After years of asking and persistent pester, Uncle Paul finally decided to settle down. Uncle Paul and Aunty Beth got engaged yesterday, 08th of October. Took some photos!


Enjoy... 

The Rings, 

pretty ain't it? 

Rombongan Dapod (The Men's Troupe)  

 My awesome cousins 

(L-R: Dina, Me, Gail and Azie) 

 The chicas with Aunty Carol (in the middle) 

 Oh, poor baby Byron, so emo

 Singing their first duet as the newly engaged couple. awwww... 

Can't wait for their wedding!