You know what sucks?

Wanting to go where ever you want but you can't because you have not gotten your license yet.

But you know what sucks even more?

Wanting to go where ever you want but still can't even though you already have your license.

From the previous post, you would know that I was excited about finally getting my driver's license. I expected that I would be able to drive to school, the state library and to training on a daily basis. In reality however, I got my license card 2 weeks late and my dad only allow me to drive around the housing area with supervision. Like driving around houses would let me get a taste of how actual driving is.. bitch please.

Maybe you'll say, "Hey, at least he lets you drive.." and think that I'm being over-dramatic about this but what if you hear your own brother saying this:

"Hey, maybe soon I'll see you on the obituary page" *laughs*

and my dad still defending him (after I scolded him for being insensible) saying that I should be forgiving and caring because I am a follower of Christ and that I shouldn't take what he said into heart.

What's the point of paying RM1,500 for my driving lessons and exams only to not let me drive in the end? And what's the point of passing the exam and still getting laughed at for being a terrible driver when you haven't even seen me drive?!

Even my tutor said I am steady enough to drive and still my brother has to make fun of my driving as if he knows how I drive. He couldn't even tell the difference between forty thousand and four thousand and he is TWELVE. What's even worse is having my parents backing him up and saying I always remember the negative parts of life and not the positive part.

Honestly, I just want him to shut the fuck up and think before he speaks because when he enters high school while shit still flowing through his mouth, he would have a bad time.

Still, my dad will forever stand by his side because my little brother is an angel to him and probably seemed like the only child among the siblings who would want to follow in his footsteps in becoming a lawyer and hopefully a politician.

Biased family is biased.

Shouldn't even be online now, but since I deleted my Twitter app, this seemed like the only place for me to rant. Having a history test tomorrow, probably should start studying. 

Sigh, I can never win an argument with my dad. 

Till whenever I see you. xx

Day 30: A picture of someone you miss.

Christopher Lee Fah

My grandfather.

Although he passed away when I was only 4 years old, and I don't really have vivid memories with him, his life and his stories were passed on to me from my mother. 

Every now and then, my mom would always talk about her very eccentric father, the Jack of all trades. He built the house that my aunts and uncles grew up in, he installed the first elevator in Sabah and he managed to bring up 8 kids with the monthly salary of less than RM1000. 

Not only that, I also knew that he loved to travel and have been to many places except for China and Macau, his hometown, which he planned to but sadly didn't have the chance.

The reason why I miss him is because I never really got to know him. I wished I did. I wish he could bring me to his fishing trips or let me wear his cowboy hat (which is now on my mom's shelf) or at least tell me some of his stories from the days back then.

Sighs. Kung, I wish I could recall at least a memory of us together, but I never could. I only remember you scolding me for not saying "excuse me" when I tried to walk pass old people.Well, at least there's something I can remember you by. 

Even though we weren't as close I wish we were, I still miss you. 

I know it took longer than expected to finish this challenge, but this is Day 30. 

Day 29: A picture that can always make you smile.

This surely has been a tough decision. I can't really come down to ONE picture as there are folers upon folders of photos that freezes wonderful memories into a rectangular sort of pixels.
Here as just some of my favourites (I would've added more, if I wasn't so busy working at my dad's office right now)

1.

 Christmas in Hokkaido.

Look at my giddy face. It was my first time seeing snow firsthand and I guess I got a little too overexcited, so I ran under the freezing snowfall and begged my already shivering sister to take this photo. Worth it :)

2. 

 Christmas Caroling.

I wouldn't miss it for the world. This is actually one of my favourite photos of all time despite my terrible haircut (not to mention acne!)

I really have a great time with them singing carols and just laughing so hard in the school bus.

3.

 Cupid Strike/Ultimate Blackhearted

Yeah, we actually named our group :P 

But these wonderful ladies have coloured my life with hilarious memories of primary school.

I'm so glad we're still in touch even though one's in Nottingham, the other just left for Australia..

and it's just Honovi(left) and me. 

Come back soon guys!! (LIKE REALLY SOON)

4.

 Just Us.

Behold the world's craziest girls in one picture. 

They're honestly so amazing and wonderful that sometimes I wonder why they're even friends with me (cause you know, I'm lame).

High school would never be the same without these girls in my life. 

5.

  Senior One Xiao '12

Meet the most awesome class I've ever been in. 

Although there's 60 of us, I can't believe how well we got along. 

Seriously, I am truly honoured to be your monitor this year, you amazing peeps :)

I'll pray and wish upon every shining star that we'll end up in the same class next year because only we can get 100% pass the whole year right?? 

FOREVER A XIAO '12

Day 27: A picture of yourself and a family member.

Dina Cyla 

She has been my big sister that I never had. 

She is the only cousin around my age that I see on a regular basis. Well, I used to, until she left for College this May. 

I miss her terribly. 

I'm not sure how we ended up being so close. We just clicked I guess. 

She was the one who brought me closer to Christ, through Lifeteen. She taught me the wonders of watching CSI and she introduced me to the wonderful world of Little Black Dress, the chic novels :)

She's a natural artist and amazing at braids. She has the patience and the kindness to tolerate with my ridiculousness at times. 

I love her to death and I can't imagine how my life would turn out if it wasn't for her. 

She brought me out of my childhood and taught me to grow up. 

She doesn't know that, but I hope she reads this and see how much she means to me. :)

I love you bebeh *lessthan3*