Overdue Feelings

There will always be this guy that you can't not have feelings for, no matter how small.
For me, it has happened.

Probably it's because I got too used to liking somebody that when I finally decide not to, the habit doesn't break easily, the need to sneak a peek at him, the thoughts about him that doesn't really matter, the butterflies you expect to get but doesn't really come.... I'm confusing myself even more everyday.

I need a distraction. Perhaps going to London is just one of the getaways I crave for. To get away from all the crap I have been having just to focus on what really matters now.I'm tired of taking crap from anybody and what's up with the "forever alone" tags? *sigh*, the crap I have to endure each day.

Enough about crap. I'm going to focus on my future and hopefully get away as far as possible from here.

I still love my hometown tho'. SABAHAN FOR LIFE. :)

Allergies.

For the first 13 years of my life, I have been allergy-free. I could eat anything edible and have itch-free skin. I was stuffing myself with all kinds of food I could get my hands on. Then, suddenly 2 years ago, I started getting rashes after eating don'tknowwhat and since then, I've been aware of what I'm putting into my mouth.

Why am I talking about my allergies?
Not sure.
Maybe because I might be allergic to someone to. Like you, LIAR.
Ever since our paths crossed, I've been getting itchy and rashes all over my body. Yes, my heart is reacting to my feelings towards you.
Ugh, I still could not get over the things that you told my friends. Who knows what bullocks have you been telling your friends. I AM SO MAD AT YOU NOW.
and to think that you were a nice guy, pfft!

Please, never say that the lies just "slipped through your mouth" or whatever shiz, because I know you've been planning every single bit down to the simple text messages to make me look like an over obsessed girl, for you. What were you trying to prove man? Trying to prove to your "guys" that finally, someone is that desperate for you? PUHLEASE. I didn't even need your number, I was okay with just being strangers, I'd rather that we become strangers than the position that we're in right now.

But then to be frank, I really don't want to be over the top furious about this thing, because it's not worth it. I just want to know why, and sadly, I don't have the guts to ask you. Chicken guts, I know.
And I'm not going to waste these words, about a guy.