March Madness

March 2017 was the wildest month of my life. So far. Here is what I did:

 

 Okay, well I didn't really do any park runs but I was doing a few long distance runs to prepare for the Bath Half on the 12th of March. Craziest few days when I stupidly did two 16km runs in the span of 3 days, alongside dance practices for BAMSA Night and a bit of fencing. NBD except for the sore legs and taking the longest time to climb down the stairs. Damn it leg muscles, you weak.

Then the big moment came. 12th March. Ran 13.1 miles. I enjoyed the run so much and it was more to do with the atmosphere than anything. Jelly babies and oatcakes were given out by residents along the way which was most likely the only reason why I didn't stop running. So cheers, Bath residents. The signs you guys made were amazing as well: "Pain now, wine later." & a few Trump-related ones made running less miserable.

Finished it under my goal time which was a great achievement. Wished I could show you my grateful, close-to-tears face at the finish line but unfortunately, you need to pay to download them and from my previous post, you'd know that I can't afford such luxuries.

Special shout out to the housemates, Sean and Pings for doing this as well. We were all crazy, but eh, I like how far we pushed ourselves (& each other). Full marathon, sometime? Maybe?? (heh, kidding. You guys can go ahead. I'll stick to 21km)

A week later, this happened. A sold out, three hour long show. Three dances and a few cameo here and there. Pics of those are NSFW but I can tell you, that it would remain among my Facebook friends and that I might have to avoid adding and lecturers/future employers/potential husbands on Facebook. Oh, the after party was great too, despite getting Coke thrown at me at McD's while I was innocently eating my cheesy chips from Ye Olde Al Falafel.

In between those, I was furiously typing away 4 essays that were filled with mediocre knowledge masked with long, sophisticated sounding words. Remember my struggles with academic writing? Yes, still struggling but thanks to a good friend (Jade, hope you are reading this x), I leveled up but only so slightly.

While writing this, I finally realised the true extent of the madness that the 31 days had put me through. It was all a blurry rush and it is finally hitting me. Coming out of this made me realise that maybe, I do have the strength to power through anything. That, or I'm used to the whole concept of casual mental breakdowns that it doesn't have a lasting emotional impact on me anymore. Either way, March showed me a newfound ability to charge through anything. Well, at least until my department/life/h8ers decide to challenge this freshly garnered strength with another crazy month, or months? Only God knows, I'm pretty sure He does. Right?

Anyways, two more months before I end my second year in university (don't panic). Still clueless with the whole university self-learning concept, but I'm getting the hang of it. Alright, now onto the preparation for 4 essay exams. Anyone has any good tips to prepare for that? I don't care for no "early planning/essay practice/read loads" advice. I meant like GOOD TIPS, i.e. how to write under pressure, how far can you bullshit your way in an essay while showing the marker that you kind of know the stuff, how to not panic etc. Please pm me or comment or tell me in person. I'll promise to bake you some good cakes to show my gratitude (once I pass my exams).

So update done here. Just needed to write this down to allow myself the opportunity to look back to this month if when my life gets on this level of craziness. #forwardthinking

Liza x

 

So I'm having a major exam this year. 

SPM, which is like the A-levels in Malaysia. 

And hence, tough tough tough tough tough year. 

So anyone who's reading, do pray for me and my fellow schoolmates that we find the strength to go through this year. 

Can't believe we're in our last years of high school already! 

It's the finals once again

It's that time of the year again.. final final exams. *children booing*
This time last year I was freaking out about PMR and UEC and by this time next year, I'm pretty sure I'll be freaking out about SPM.
So I guess this will be my final 2nd-Term finals.

Oh. This finals stands 40% of the 55% of my final average, so I guess I really have to double my efforts after failing Bio and AdMaths for mid-terms.*awwhhhhhh*

That's swell. I'm still procrastinating thanks to VSauce and their interesting videos.
Seriously, they have the weirdest facts and images. Random too. Now who doesn't like videos with a random girl holding a lighter to the end of the butt and farting? Oh the randomness.

Just lavishing my desire to type things out 'cause typing on a keyboard is fun. :)

typetypetypetypetypetype

now the word "type" looks weird to you right?? Haha.

A little bit too impulsive perhaps?

Newton's third law states that with every action, there is a reaction of equal force.
That doesn't only apply in the world of physics, rather it happens often in our normal daily lives.

A very good example,
when your teacher suddenly talks to you with a loud voice, you'll automatically answer back in the same volume, or when your friends punch you in the arms, you pinch them with the same force, or so you think.

So, don't be surprised if someone reacts too impulsively. Stand back and stop to think, you might've been a bit too impulsive too.

There's a way to end the cycle though. Be the bigger person. Don't fight force with force. Take a deep breath, pat your chest and say "Aaa Iz Vell" (All Is Well, "Three Idiots" anyone?)
Then, just smile and back away.

Anyways, Finals are on the 9th! Excited! Haha, yeah, the thought about sitting for the final exam of the year excites me..weeeeeee!
Can't wait!

Results!

So this year has been chaotic for me in the academic department.
Went through 2 public exams, suffered all the pressure and projects and deadlines.
Finally, my hardwork is about to be credited. Not sure how it will turn out though.

Yes, the PMR and UEC results are coming out in the same week! UEC will be on the 21st and PMR on the 23rd.

After the last day of exams, I have forced myself not to think about the results since it was months away then. Now, it's in a couple weeks time and not sure if I can control my excitement and anxiety.
In other words, I'm scared. I'm afraid the reality won't match up to the expectation. Honestly, it doesn't matter that much if I disappointed my parents or teachers. But it will hurt if I disappointed myself.

I've put in so much effort into finishing the papers, especially Chinese History. I would beat myself up if I failed. *gulp*


Hoping all the other candidates are getting ready to receive the news better than I am.
I have been having "panic attacks" at the very thought of the results.

Moving Forward

Moving along to the flow of Time.

We're heading for the middle of October, which means another 2 grueling weeks of endless procrastination and exams for me and my fellow schoolmates. Preparing for the mother of all Junior Exams, yes, I'm talking about the merciless UEC.
Yes, it's worse than it sounds. But, I'm prepared to conquer that monster and be victorious!

I'm gonna start preparing for battle after I'm done with all my social networking. Give me 30 minutes. Trying to discipline myself here!

Can't wait till this nightmare is over, then I can finally let loose and enjoy life. Not that I'm not enjoying it now, but it's harder when the pressure is twice the size of Mt. Kinabalu. (yes, I'm exaggerating)

N-Eways,  I have lots of ideas for the next months. Thinking about contributing to the society. For they say, "Give, and you shall receive"

Can't wait!

Pray for me and all the others sitting for UEC!

Yes, poor me. 

Sick just days before the exam that I've been preparing for the past 3 years.

Sad life :'( 

Supposed to be studying but my mind just won't take in any more information. 

Mom will be in the UK when I sit for my first paper and Dad, well, he'll be in KL as usual. 

No one will be nagging me to study or go to sleep for the whole PMR period. 

It's just up to me and my determination. 

BUT THEN, my 40 year old uncle is finally getting engaged on the 8th, which is in the middle of exams and I'm looking forward to that more than the exam. So, I can tell I'm screwed :/

So, to anyone reading this, please please please pray for me and I will pray for you too! 

God Bless and yeah.

Our Final Destination

Not to be all melodramatic about it but, yes, in a few weeks, I'll be entering my "final destination". Life would halt at a standstill for that period of time and hopefully, I might be able to resume normally.
I'm not going to die, just going to sit for the PMR & UEC examinations alongside my friends. (but then,from another point of view it would seem that I just might "die")

Yeap, been writing about that the whole year. Can't wait to get over it actually, but still, I don't want it to come that fast. Come slow, go fast. Geddit?

Anyways, spent my day finishing up the final chapters of Book 1 on Pottermore. Finally! So I can now focus on my studies. Yeah right. Yes, yes I will.

Also today is the Mooncake Festival, aka the Mid-Autumn Festival! So happy mooncake eating to those who are celebrating! My family celebrated it yesterday so I'm staying off the mooncakes for now.

p/s: I haven't watched Final Destination and I would not watch it unless it's on HBO, so I could change the channel whenever I like. Just wanting to get it out there.

Please don't wake me up when September ends

It's the ninth month of the year and I can tell you, I am not looking forward to the tenth. Two major exams in October, with only two weeks in between them, and when the clock strikes 12 on the Hallowe'en night, I will jump for joy. Not that I hate every October, but it's what going on then that's very upsetting to the mind. Finals are always in this month and every year, I wish for only this month to pass by ASAP.

Anyways, let's focus on today's topic: September.
2nd half of the 2nd term will start next Monday (5th) and boy, would it be hectic.
Supposed to be getting ready for PMR and UEC by now and I haven't even started. *the feeling of regret starts*
With Pottermore constantly on my mind, it would be twice as hard to resist the temptations of the Internet.
Thankfully, God heard my pleas and made the Internet slower! but there's always WiFi.... NO.

My mom said I need to discipline myself if I was ever going to get good results. Yeah, like that would be hard. Pfft. *awkward silence*

Okay then, my famous last words before I go completely A-wall from the Internet again.

"Don't go making mistakes if you don't have the guts to admit them" 

Till then.

Sunday Blues

Oh, Sunday. Sometimes, you just suck the soul out from me.

I know, haven't been blogging in a while. Been too busy with everything. Studies, stupid Angry Birds, fencing, Masterchef, perfecting that apple crumble so I could bring to school... Yeah, it's taking up my sweet blogging time.

Anyways, more disappearance like the last one in the future because I'll be getting ready for PMR & UEC!!! Crap, I sound so happy about it, but I'm not. It's just too much too handle for a 15 year old and it'll be a miracle if I actually sit down with a pen in my hand and with my thinking cap on. Fat chance.

A lot of drama happened in high school (no surprise there) and I just can't wait to babble about it! -if I have the time-

Well, till then, I bid farewell internet. *sobs*