The 19th Life

So hi.

I'm 19 already, was just reading my previous post and I realised that I should keep coming back to that post! It was a well written *ahem* note to self. Sometimes people stray and well we need some tugging to get back on the right track.

I was also going through "My Dreams" page and realised that I wanted to get a 4/5 in my UCAS and I did!! Sadly, I also wanted to get into CU (Cambridge University) for PBS but was rejected through a letter (hence, the missing 1/5). It was hard for me to come to terms with that rejection as months and months of building up anticipation and preparation only to have it swept aside in one swift move, in this case, a swift opening of a letter.

Well, it took me quite awhile to finally realise that my undergrad dreams in Cambridge is over and that the future is yet again uncertain. This time though, I am ready.
For now, I am ever so grateful with my offer from Bath Uni and I know I can and would have to work my butt off for this grade (A*AA). At least, I know I'm heading to an equally great place as both universities have the same offer, and Bath provides placement years which I know is vital when going out into the real "work world".

Life in CATS so far have been amazing, ups and downs yes, but amazing nonetheless. My way of carefully selecting the people I surround myself with is working out for the best. I get to be in great company and on the other hand, enjoy dwelling in my own thoughts.

So great things are ahead these next few months, like the Grad Ball in May, my volunteering project in July and UNI in September!!

All is well.

Hello from the UK.

It seems like the older I got, the faster time passed by. 

What felt like seconds, in reality is actually 3 weeks. Almost getting through my first month as a college student in a foreign land. So far, it is going well.

In my previous post, I did mention that I was terrified about starting school all alone, friendless. To be frank, I really was. My first two nights in the hostel were mostly spent inside my room, whatsapping family and friends back home, feeling homesick and alone. 

As induction came along, manged to make a few friends who later became my good friends here in college.

I guess my only advice to those going to a foreign land for studying or are just in a completely new environment, is to not to be shy to say "Hi." That's how I met most of my friends here. 

I guess it just takes your guts to muster out a single "Hello" to really increase your chances of meeting really interesting and nice people. That is what I learned so far here at CATS.

Turning 18 in England (also my first birthday away from home) was really nice. There wasn't a big celebration but my new friends here made me so happy with their wishes and gifts (though they didn't have to get me anything). Of course, the peeps back home outdid themselves this year with all the explicit and sweet wishes. Truly truly blessed. 

Well I will try to keep this blog alive because doing 5 terms A levels is kind of a challenge as I have to finish my AS syllabus in two terms instead of three! Well, I guess I can cope as I'm taking Maths, Physics and Sociology. A balance on both calculations and writing. 

Ah well, that's all for now. 

Cheerios! (Haha, so English lol)

The next step.

T-minus 47 days till I sit for SPM. Then less than 30 days after my last paper, I will be off to England. Thinking about leaving home to study scares the hell out of me sometimes.

I will be alone and I won't have any friends on the first day of college. I remember my first day of primary school where I was entering a class full of strangers and I never felt so scared and alone. Way back then, I had my mum to cry to, but when I enter college, I wouldn't have anyone to run to.

I'll be on my own.

I would have to make new friends all by myself and the thought terrifies me.
First days always bring me nightmares.

Okay, now that I've got my fear out of my head, I'll just have to toughen up and be confident.
Who knows? Maybe there is someone out there who is in the exact situation as I am.

So anyone out there who is attending or will be attending CATS, I guess I'll see you there in January :)

Dang it, I'm still nervous.